The Anniversary Of Our Big Surprise!

It is exactly 1 year ago today that I found out I was pregnant with Addison. And talk about a shock. Lloyd and I had tossed around the idea of another baby after Corbin's arrival, we thought he was the last. but after bringing him home we both know otherwise, but had decided to take the wait and see how we feel as he got older approach.
Well I think someone else had other plans for us....
(Keep in mind at this time I was in the middle of a not so good depression so having a baby for me was so completely not in the cards).

Anyway, I had a dream the night before that I knew, I just knew I was pregnant & I was up at one of our local nursing home (don’t ask me why) trying to get them to let me use their bathroom so I could pee on the pregnant test. They wouldn’t let me use their facilities, so I went to the house next door (yes still weird) and they wouldn’t let me either. But in my dream I JUST KNEW I WAS Pregnant AND IT WAS A GIRL. Anyhow I wake up from this dream thinking WOW that was SO WEIRD.

I told my friend Bridget in our daily conversation about my strange dream and I think we just laughed it off. Well later that day I happen to go to the Dollar Tree to pick up some pencils and such for the kids & as I was getting ready to go check out I happened to walk by the pregnancy tests. Now really to this day I have know idea why I picked one up because I knew there was no way I could be preggers as we were using birth control. But I bought the test anyway thinking ehh who cares it’s only a buck.

Well I take it home and take it later that day and wouldn’t you know it 2 lines appear.
Okay I am thinking NO FREAKING WAY this is a dollar tree test it must be wrong, so I call Bridget back and ask what her success rate has been with these cheap tests. And she said that they didn’t work for her either. So I figured it’s just a cheap test that gives wrong results, but better be safe then sorry and go to Wal-Mart and buy a real test.

Fast forward to that evening- Lloyd comes home and is “trying” to be flirty I proceed to tell him that he MAY have done enough damage already. The look on his face was priceless. So I take him to the bathroom and show him the cheap test and he said are you going to Wal-Mart to get a real test and I said is the Pope Catholic? I’m pretty sure that I didn’t eat dinner, I just ran to the store & bought a 3 pack of EPT tests. I came home and waited until the kids were in bed and had a moment to myself.

Then on March 6th at 9:50 p.m I saw the test with 2 yes 2 lines (& yes I looked at the time and wrote it on my calendar). I kinda freaked out just a little bit at this point and I took the stick and stood in front of my sleeping on the couch husband and proceeded to shake him and put that test as close to his eyeballs as possible and said, HOW DID THIS HAPPEN!?! Seriously! We were preventing children, not opening the door to the house and saying come on in! He woke up fast, saw the results and said take one in the morning and see if it’s different. Well we all know that it’s not going to change. What are they odds you get 2 false positives. So I had 4 tests as of the morning of the 7th all telling me all the same thing I was pregnant with our 5th child.

Fast forward a month. I had at this point my first Dr. Appointment on my birthday no less. Nothing like have a pap smear, a breast exam and an ultrasound on your birthday, talk about memorable. And I came home with the ultrasound picture and put it away. I was so in denial. It’s not just a state of mind, IT IS a place.

Anyway I eventually came around to the baby idea, say around June when I finally post the above ultrasound on my blog andI have to say I COULDN'T GIVE THIS LITTLE GIRL UP TO SAVE MY LIFE. I am so grateful she is here. WE LOVE, LOVE, LOVE her. We know she was suppose to come to our house and am very glad that Heavenly Father sent her when he did. Even though at the time I thought he had a terrible sense of humor.I think she was just what I needed at the moment, my depression never
got any worse as the Dr. thought it might especially after giving birth. I've
for the most part been Stable Mable.

Phew, there is the story of how I found out I
was having our little girl. I had to write it out for posterity purposes,
hopefully she won't look back and think she was not wanted because she so IS!
Even the bigger kids say we like her more, because I post more on my blog about
her. Well that’s not the case she is just changing more than they are at this
point in her life. And speaking of change she is little Miss Mobile now. She was
rolling from back to front all day as of yesterday. Crazy how fast they grow up. She is such a happy & fun baby too, she always has a smile on her face.
Addison We Love You! How could you not, just look at that little face! :)